Sometimes I find myself disappointed of me.Why?easy.The answer is-because I'm ordinary. And I want to be extraordinary.Yes,ordinary people are required too(and in some sort of way no one is ordinary,we all are special in our own way),but I want to be more than that.
I'm not the person I wanted to be.Yet.I don't excel in anything.I'm not the best in what I do.I don't have enough will,I don't have enough ambition. I wish to do things and dream about them, but I guess that's all I do-dream.And dreaming isn't enough-it's not reality. I know I can do better than this-I once did.I can be better,maybe even excel,if I put all that I am in it.So why don't I do it? why do I leave everything hanging till the last moment?Why do I focus my attention on things I shouldn't?And why am I not doing anything to change all these?It's such a big why.Everything it's a choice.Everything.And I think I made a few wrong ones.I want to be better than this,not only in what I do,but in what I am.I want to be a good person-the person I dreamed I can be,with a nice character.I want to be more than just ordinary.
Wow...i'm shocked...it's like...i was reading my own thoughts...
ReplyDeleteI will be maybe rude, but ... I do not agree ... wont u become always more like all these stressed people around you, focusing always more on your career and your job and wanting to be the best, and forgetting to live all the rest ?
ReplyDeleteLife is not just about a permanent competition. It's so much more !
Maybe have u made some wrong decisions ( but who dont ? It's mistakes that makes u grown, no ?) ... Think deeply to not make future decisions u will regret again ...
@yannovitch i wasn't talking only about career actualy...because right now career isn't so important..as i don't have one..but school is..and it's not about forgeting to live...it's about how u live.
ReplyDeleteso now that u said this, steph said it too...can i say it again? we all feel ordinary...we don't excel...few are the ones who do...fewer are the ones who even realize it...still, dreaming in who you'd like to be looses who you really are...so keep dreaming because otherwise life sucks...and stop being lazy and prove them wrong
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